Life is so damn precious. And it is an amazing thing. Today could have been my last night. But something or someone was looking over me. Fate said my life wasn’t time to be over. There are so many emotions to be felt when things like this happen but more than anything I’m so thankful. I’m thankful for those amazing people who take time out of their life to make sure I’m safe and help me, a complete stranger. You people are wonderful. I am thankful for those people who make a career for making sure people are okay and care for the safety of others. I am thankful I am okay and in my bed now able to relax or at least try. I am thankful for all of those who cared to ask if I’m okay, and my best friends and boyfriend and family who helped me.
It’s just life really is such an amazing thing. It has so much to offer, and I will continue to broaden my ways of thinking about things and seeing things. I am becoming conscious and aware. And those two things are amazing.
New Years resolutions … This year my mind set is in a whole different place. I want to work on myself but in a different way of thinking. Yes, I want to exercise more and work on a healthier body but I also want to work on a healthier mind.
1) Pay attention to my thoughts.
2) Turn my negative thinking into positive thinking.
3) Stop judging, everything and everything.
That’s gonna be my top three. Thankful for my boyfriend for always guiding me and letting me see the world from new perspectives.
This section talks about people who ignore the questions that come along with existence, like “what is life about?”, “why am I here?”, “what’s my role in this life?”, ect. And these people instead go through life by just going to school, working, and going through life in a kind of “routine”. I think this is very interesting because of the way society is right now. As kids we are taught, if you can even call it “taught” because as a kid in most situations you really don’t have a choice. But you are ‘taught’ to go to school to get an education to then lead to getting a job which will lead to earning money to have a car and a home and other materialistic things. Never once in school have I been asked to think about the questions which are most important in life, like “why am I here?”. In my own opinion, I believe we are here for a reason and to make a difference but to figure this out, we have to go through our own path in life, which could consist of whatever is right for us. Not what society says we should do, like education. Maybe for some people, the education we get in school called ‘book smarts’ is not the same as the education we can get from traveling to other parts of the world and understanding different cultures and how different people. And maybe this is the type of education some people need to help figure out the answers to the most important questions in life. This applies to me in my religion. As a child, I was not taught about different religions. Instead my parents brought me up as a Christian and I went to CCD which was schooling to teach me about the religion. My parents did not show me as a child that there were options that might fit the type of person that I am better than the religion they had found that best fit them. I learned about different religions by meeting different people in my life and then exploring and asking questions. And still at twenty two years old, I am still exploring religions and what might best fit me. I think religion is a huge part of people’s lives but once again this is something that most people are just brought into and don’t ever think to question. Life to me is about questioning everything.
I enjoy retail when people don’t give two fucks. These people who let in consume their lives need to breathe and just stop. #itsjustajob
Negative people and people who are having a bad day and take it out on me are not people I want in my life. Keep your negativity away from me please
When a customer takes the time to read your name tag and address you by your name. It’s the small things. #retail #respect #iappriciatethatshit
I don’t want people to think I’m changing who I am. I think of it more as growing. I’ve always considered myself a spiritual person, but I don’t think I was ever doing much about it? I love nature. I love music. I love adventure and just going. I love trying to figure myself out. I love seeing things from outside the conventional box.
Recently I’ve been so interested in meditation and psychoactive drugs. Basically anything to alter my state of mind, have out of body experiences, cleanse my mind of all this shit I’ve been brought into. All of the goodness.
Not worrying about money, friends, school, and all these small topics when the world has so much more to offer. I want to open all my eyes to what there is to offer. So many people have no idea what type of power we have within ourselves, and I don’t want to miss out on mine.
Just the one type of meditation I did today grounded me so much. I feel a certain calmness and at ease with everything.
Have to write down my immediate thoughts/experiences. I have a hard time meditating ever because of all the immediate thoughts that come rushing through my head but this was different. First off, so many different thoughts kept coming up, but I acknowledged them and let them go. Then my body started to feel very heavy and then I felt myself floating above my body. Then I stopped focusing on my body and saw different patterns and shapes. Then, the best most different experience began when whatever tone came on where my body, I could swear was literally spinning lying down and it kept getting faster and faster. The thing is I knew I was just lying in my bed with my legs straight, arms straight, not moving a muscle but literally all I could feel was like I was on a spinning bed going so fast but there really was no bed I was lying on, it was more me floating and spinning. I had no idea how I was going to stop when the tones stopped, but I did.
Sometimes I think back on a story I once heard about a man who was a regular at a coffee shop and of course the employees knew him by first name and would always greet him and ask how he was doing. Well one day when they asked how he was he admitted feeling like killing himself. The lady sat down and talked to him for hours and made sure to get him some help.
It’s so important to remember that everyone is facing their own battles which might be kept a secret. So never forget to give a smile to a stranger, say hello, do something small like hold a door open, anything. You never know what one small act could do for someone. Maybe it’s what they need to keep moving to the next day. You just never know …